MEME: LET'S TALK ABOUT OUR FEELINGS

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Faith → Godric

OKAY THIS IS THE COMPLICATED ONE. Godric is a source of comfort and stability at the same moment he scares the living daylights out of her. Faith's experiences with romance are... dismal. She's never had a ~real boyfriend~ in the adult sense (guys she slept with in Boston do not count, because the relationships you have at fifteen are not the same you have later in life, lol) until Robin. She trusted him, gave him a chance and he dumped her ass flat, heaping more trust issues on the already ginormous pile.

Her relationship with authority figures is equally shitty; first Watcher, murdered in front of her and Faith still blames herself for it. Giles (who she actually respects and likes, in her way) will always always always out Buffy above her. Her dad was an abusive murderer and her mom was a neglectful junkie. The Mayor was... healthy in the most unhealthy ways possible, but he died on her. And Angel is Angel which is another ball of fucked up.

The point is: Faith doesn't really have stability. Or constant, positive attention. Angel comes close, but their relationship is weird with the (usually) unspoken attraction, and the way that Faith is actually kiiiiind of more an equal with him, especially given their Angelus-fueled history. Godric is something else; he's basically all her needs in one. (Violent sex, attention, daddy figure and layer down of the law.) The power structure with Angel can be somewhat shifty, but with Godric Faith is secure in her place on the food chain, so to speak. This, in her fucked up 'lol I actually hide a deep longing for authority and structure under all this swagger' way, makes him feel safe for her. (Because she's messed up.)

Faith doesn't really do attachments because she's terrified of being rejected and thus hurt yet again; however, Godric has managed to sneak past all her barriers to the point where in some hypothetical fest of horrors if it came down between saving Godric and Angel, she'd hesitate. She'd pick Angel and then try and drink herself into a grief coma, but she'd hesitate. And given that Angel is basically at the very top of her (short) People I Give a Shit About list that's huge.

On the shallow end she likes that she can't really hurt Godric; the sex is amazing and she doesn't have to hold back. (Plus, lol biting kink.) He's basically everything she actually kind of needed in a person but never in a million years would have let herself go for outside of Taxon.